Obviously

Shit

Shit

And with those words

I saw it coming

With her secret little smile

And the way you bowed your head

I was the spider in the corner

Scuttling side to side, wanting you to notice

And please leave me be

Put away the newspaper

Rolled up tight rolled up tight rolled up rolled up rolled up

So Damn Tight.

And you can grin at me all you want

With that vote-worthy shimmer

And the bigness of your ambivalence

You big big big fake

I don’t feel so bitter

As stupid and crushed

Feeling crushed

From a mush

In the middle of Oregon on a hot sunny day

I’m the mud on your shoes

As you wade through the marsh

Holding her hand to support her dainty ballet.

You can’t DO me like this, mama.

I haven’t felt so in a long while

Had pushed it away in lullaby comforts

Does everyone have to follow the songs

And accept the power of carnal affections?

I reffUSE

You are nothing

And still a smile

Branded top my skin

Shit

Shit shit shit

I’ve never been so fuddled

As when I heard those words

And realized that I was as stupid as I sounded

And worse

As stupid as I knew as stupid as I knew it would always be and

Best

Stupid as shiiiiiiit.

.me.